My brother gets out of the hospital today. Thank God he’s
now okay. As for me? I’m fine… lazy cause it’s another Monday
but nonetheless fine.. I’ve been thinking a lot lately though what I’m
going to be doing when I graduate.  * sigh *

 

Just a quick update on my previous post. My brother is
feeling a lot better today. Thanks to all who showed their concern! 😀 it
really helps to have people to talk to and cheer you up during times like
these.His dengue and the other stuff (like the blood vomitting) is gone now.
All that’s left is that he has bronchial asthma, fever and his liver isn’t
responding too well yet, but at the rate he’s going, I’m sure he’ll
get better in a few days. Well actually I’m just relieved there isn’t
any blood coming out of him anymore.

 

I was here at the hospital the whole night, my brother was
diagnosed with dengue yesterday. He’s been having fevers up to 40c since Thursday.
He tested negative on the first blood test but they wanted to be sure yesterday
which is why they tested him again. They had to rush him to the nearest
hospital. So after work I came and spent the night here…

 

They gave him a plasma and platelet transfusion last night…
no negative reactions to it so far. My mom’s flying in today from the
province. She’ll be arriving in about an hour. It’ll be good for my
brother to have my mom around… since Saturday he’s been talking
about dying which is not really probable… is it? I don’t even want
to think about it. I shouldn’t. I’m just going to drive myself nuts
entertaining the thought and in the end it might just be over nothing. Well
there’s no denying that dengue is noted to have a high mortality rate,
but of course, I’m sure that’s for the cases when it isn’t
treated properly. I’m not paranoid. I’m sure you think I’m
starting to get crazy over this but I’m not… I’m just
expressing my thoughts, you know, there’s nothing else to do over here so
I decided to write… no one to talk to but Oyster so here I am.

 

i think I just got bitten by something, hope it’s not
a mosquito. If it is, hope it didn’t bite my brother before it bit me! Hehe
hmmm…

 

student nurse just took his temperature, 39.9… I’m
sure he’’ll get better in a bit. He still has two bags of platelets
on the way. He was supposed to have 5 last night but only 3 were available so
they had to wait till this morning.

 

student nurses are much better than the actual nurses…
they actually nurse, I mean take care of their patients… I mean, like
just now my brother coughed some onto his spitbowl and this guy actually took
the bowl and washed it. Last night we had this one bitchy nurse who replied,
well snapped at everything we asked, kind of like she was irritated. Doesn’t
she understand that were just worried about things. take this for example, as I
mentioned, my brother’s platelet count dropped to 18 yesterday which is
why he was rushed to the hospital. My uncle, who’s a doctor, ordered for
blood transfusion as soon as possible. That was at about 4 pm and last
night at about 10 they haven’t even started yet and of course as worried
relatives we ask the nurse. Put it this way, it couldn’t have been any
worse if she said, “It’s cause he still has fever you stupid idiots
that we can’t give him a transfusion yet!! Don’t you dumb people
know that we won’t be able to distinguish negative reactions from the
transfusion if we give it to him with a fever?!?! IDIOTS!!”. I wanted to
slap her to her senses. And I thought nurses were supposed to give their
patients comfort. Well that was one nurse. The little nurse in the funny red
blouse. Maybe that was why she was pissed. In fairness to the hospital, the
rest of the nurses were pretty much okay. This one who just came in to give my
brother the remaining bags of platelets is a kind and happy one. There should
be more nurses like her, cheery and all. She’s in a real nurses uniform
so I guess THAT’s why she’s happy. Hehe kidding..

 

 

 

 

Do I make the same mistake again? Why, why oh why am I being
made to choose… you think you have everything figured out and then the
next minute, someone smacks you in the face with a pile of shit. The bad thing
is, you don’t know it’s shit till you’re sore and aching.

 

The greatest thing i learned in my Shakespeare class:

 "Neither a borrower nor a lender be;
   For loan oft loses both itself and friend, "
                                                   – Hamlet

I have taken that quote to heart… well as much as possible. i remember my teacher saying that when you lend money, treat it as though you were giving it away. so if it comes back to you, it’ll be a welcome surprise and if not, you won’t feel bad about it, and you won’t lose your friend over it…:)

After an afternoon’s work on our thesis (and 4 hours
of stuffing myself with junk food) trash had to be taken care of. I was on my
way to the library to do extra research work I couldn’t finish in the
lab, carrying my trash and I look in the hallway and find absolutely no trash
bins. I went to our dept to try and find one there but there still wasn’t
any.. what kind of building doesn’t put trashbins accessble to people?? Are
they tryng to encourage literring? So what if it’s a Saturday! Argh.. oh
well.. don’t ask me where I put my trash.. 😀

 

I don’t know why i’m still awake.. i’ve been lackin sleep for the past few days.. i just got home from our practice for tomorrow’s "acoustic jameng’g".. it’s a yearly competition open to bands of the college of engineering..We’re representing our organization..

 

I’ve been more active with org stuff these last sems of my college life. I never was during my first three years in the U.P. My life was mostly class, home and Eng’g webteam stuff.. but mind you, Eng’g webteam stuff didn’t only mean work! we had our share of fun stuff to do. But sadly, the people i used to work with moved on to greater things (a.k.a. work [which makes me reconsider the use of the term greater]) so i moved on as well. I left the team to give room for a newer breed of web developers who would take over in the following years. 😀 Now i found my source of extra curricular activities with UP Cursor, the organization for computer science majors. I realized it’s a good thing to be involved with an organization. you get to meet a lot of people and you get to harness other skills other than those academic related.. :p i guess it’s for the development of a person as a whole. of course, we can’t live on just being good programmers, we gotta learn the ropes of working within a community and stuff like that..

 

anyway.. enough babbling.. back to work.. 😀 oh yeah, i gotta rest, i’m singing tomorrow!

I think I have to have this removed. I’m stressed. We were rushing on machine project last night, I slept at about 2am and woke up at 7:30. Yesterday I slept at 2 and woke up at 6. Now I feel like my brain’s about to explode. I got zits all over my face and my eye hurts! I have this migraine attacks whenever I do excessive reading/staring at the computer. (which is why I’m typing most of this email with my eyes closed) I even fell asleep in class this morning! i feel so sick but I’ve got so much work to do. 😦 yesterday’s exam was a disaster, and we found out yesterday afternoon that we had to submit our problem definition yesterday. Talk about cramming. Good thing it went well with our adviser. I’ve got a pending unfinished external project and tomorrow, we’re starting our trend micro entry which is due on august 15. What’s with us and last minute projects??

 

Current state: unstable (and it doesn’t help that it’s that time of the month!)

 

The good thing about this is that i coded my first Csharp Program this morning! I like it so far.. especially the semicolons! yahoo!!

 

    

Btw, if you wanna steer clear of the mushy stuff and want
it pure technical, go to my spoke blog at http://www.thespoke.net/MyBlog/jlvillaraza/MyBlog.aspx

 

I feel a wave of emotions about to take the form of a blog
pretty soon.. not now though.. pressed for time..

 

hell days are fast approaching.. i hope i survive.. 🙂

okay.. so this is like my Nth blog already.. just so you know the ones that i’m payin attention to, theres the one on blogger, jlvillaraza.blogspot.com, which is prolly the one with most entries, and there the one i have on the spoke. i also have one on xanga, live journal and others which i have already forgotten.. why? i have no idea.. 😀 but out of all these i find the one on blogger and this one on spaces really good since it has a publish through email option. i’m not connected to the net 24/7 so what i do is blog through outlook and then send it out at a later time. well anyway..